No, guys, it’s not my birthday today. I was just looking through some files in some of my hard disks and bumped into these photos that my friends took almost a year ago. Yes, a year has gone by in a blink without me realising that I will be going from 30 to 31, damn I’m old.
Looking back through this past year, I feel like I’ve been through some ups and downs. Mostly the downs, but I’ve read a book called Uncommon Way by Jovi Adhiguna Hunter which only available in Bahasa Indonesia ( sorry guys ) that really opened up my perspective. In that particular book, there’s one paragraph that intrigued me most. It is said that if he could go back in time and see his little self as a young boy, he would pat his back and simply say “Don’t worry, you’re okay. You’re going to be okay. Life will be okay.”
And through some downs in my life, I see that I’m still okay, I’m still blessed more than others and I can be grateful for my life. Literally, I’m just so confuse about what I will do career wise on my future that I forget to notice the little things in life that matter.
Waking up healthy, having a roof above me, having a Mom that is so supportive of whatever I’m doing, having some saving to buy me some time during my job search, I literally am okay.
Life is just like a rollercoaster. Sometimes we’re up in the air, sometimes we’re down under and sometimes we’re just freely going up or simply falling. But life does go on and there is a tomorrow worth fighting for.
I used to be scared of growing up and growing old. But that’s a reality we cannot change, that time goes by whether we’re ready or not, like it or not. So what do we do ? We endure the hard times because good times will come and just live.
So here’s to 30 years going to 31 years of my life in this world.
I’m still nothing, but I’ll be a something.
Peace and love birthday mood, S. X.